I PUBLISH, THEREFORE I AM

It's perfectly normal to be taken aback when a younger counterpart takes the cake which was meant for you, there is no way you are gonna get all that you want that easily. In a way, over the years, even you have done the same thing to your seniors i.e. took their piece of cake (for a reason or just by plain luck). So, be a sport and don't have any hard feelings when a younger counterpart takes the opportunity meant for you, just apply a little logic , it might be because there is something far better inline for you, or may be because he was the obvious choice, not you. I have seen this happen but, I have never experienced it, probably because I belong to the youngest of the working class . But, I have been in schools and colleges, I got threatened by a junior a lot of times and there was too much bad blood between us for months together. The point to be noted is that I never felt bad when I took on some seniors and scored better than him.  You see why? it is because w...

Sounds cool! Reminds me of Einstein,and founders of FB, Microsoft and Apple. They dropped out and look where they are. What does it tell you? as far as their current status is concerned, dropping out was a wise choice. Of all the people I know, not everyone is doing what they learned in college. Actually, there is no What's new subject in engineering which talks about the in thing . Almost everything we do on the job is done from scratch, but, education backs you all the time. What if the HR/Interviewer has questions like "What is it that you can come and take it forward from day one in the office", "If you like XYZ domain, what can you demonstrate right now". Guys who can answer that will find themselves placed in a good position, lot better than those who are still to find their niche . Dropping out ain't cool , those who drop out are usually way too smarter for their peer group, these guys have already studied their courses and they hav...

Nothing wrong if we dint understand certain things but trusted them blindly coz we knew that someone else understood, learned and excepted accepted it the way it is. Not everything is meant to be understood, if you cant understand, just go for a brute force memorization . Brute force memorization? 13*13 is 169, 13*13 is 169...13*13 is 169. His name is Robert Paulson, His name is Robert Paulson, His name is Robert Paulson...His name is Robert Paulson ;-) You dint understand, doesnt matter, just say that 10 times and you wont forget it (at least, for a few hours or days). Makes no sense for us to keep learning things which we are not interested in. Certain things, we don't learn instead we memorize coz we know we need it irrespective of our understanding. As an Indian, with all the peer pressure at school , I nailed this dialogue to my head " those who understand the concepts and study for the exams are the ones  who are inte...

Yesterdays frustration is todays creativity ;-D. I just found this 10th standard notebook and to my surprise, the notebook label is a masterpiece (may be, its just to my eyes ;-)). It shows, how determined was he, back in the school days. Please judge the book by its cover

It really takes time for important things to develop/build/grow, Maturity is the name of the game and primarily,it is the journey which is the real deal and not the goal. What seems all of a sudden: Dandruff doesn't not come to your hair all of a sudden- it needs around a fortnight to settle down and give you a hint that its there. Tumor is not tumor in the beginning, it is a swelling which warns you, threatens you, punishes you and then finally becomes a tumor to kill you. So, even a tumor is not all of a sudden. A leader is someone who not only knows about "how to lead" but should also be clear about "how to be led". So, even leadership isn't all of a sudden. A rude comment is like a slap, plenty of it is a dent and then finally, more of it is a hole. Naturally, even rude behavior takes time to knock us down. You might have what it takes, but it takes time for you to understand how to make use of all that...

You can't fool everyone and if you think you can; then we have a winner, you have succeeded in fooling yourself. Again, you can't fool everyone every time, its kinda cool to not do stuff and get results but that's gonna take you somewhere (half way) but not there (all the way). I realized it coz I thought I could - I want to be in publishing (which I am) and wanna go a long way in it but I get these comments about my grammar, one women said- " You still suck at grammar after around an year, you have not changed at all ", that is by far one of the best constructive criticism I have received. I dint realize it when the person mouthed it, but, (today) it suddenly popped in my head that " who am I trying to kid? I have got to work on my grammar coz I wanna be in publishing and it's a pre-req (long- prerequisite ;-))". You can't fool everyone every time, Certain things are essential and you need to do/learn them (for sure) to...

Man! I am really surprised with my poetry skills. ;-) I was just cleaning my cupboard and getting rid of all the books & clothes pilled up for no reason, surprisingly, I found my engineering papers and notes in the debris...;-P...I treasure it now bcoz it's all about my academics and college life. Now, it has got itself a nice suitcase.   What's the point : I also found this little poetry which I wrote around 3 yrs back. Read on. Class of 2008, CSE 'A' Presenting the class of 2008 , CSE 'A' We really were one a kind, I say the students of the class were diversified but the residing interests were extremely classified Abosulutely, nobody was here to study As, enjoyment and rest were ever ready Clearing semester was a matter of worry one night stand was the max we could give in a hurry There is no way I am cursing myself for getting less in 12th it's a sheer blessing in disguise, as I felt Now its time for us to g...

Schooling is our birthright, we are what we are because of our education (to an extent). But as I am already out of school & even college to that matter, I understand the deeper meaning of our education (& I know I am not the only one). BTW... How many of us are doing what we like in the industry we belong too? How many of us have had change of plans, after graduating & being academically custom fit for a particular industry? How many of us wait for a Friday night on every day of the week? How many of us just work as there is no other alternative i.e. some other job or studies? How many of us are confused of what we want even after a good 16yrs of education? How many of us wish there were competence based interview and not experience/academic based? Not necessarily everyone falls in the YES I DO category but the point is most likely people do it. Try tutoring kids from 5th-8th standard , the content seems to the point & right on but the way they are examined is so not...

I just feel like punishing myself for getting this much. All 10 th class kids can do better than this, so now I exactly know where I stand. The shit is really about to get heavy. Bad Bad Bad Bad score.;-( 32.7 ...its like a deja vu (ref:cat score) PS: cant believe this man!!...both cat & xat the exact same scores (even after the decimal point) PS: I just cant tell you about how my confidence level has shattered . I don't think I even have a level for that. Damn pissed but not angry. lets c what happens this year...c ya

I thought I'd never ever let this thing publish but its no secret, I have flunked bad (BTW its not the first time I flunked) & it had to be in my archives. I feel so sorry for myself right now that I've no words to express. I am so so so so so so disappointed that I am trying to hide it with my periodic laughter. Really a big blow to my CAT race & of course it is an indicator of where I stand in front of the immensely competitive junta.   That's how bold & stupid I can be...uploading this shit image (32.73) what can I say- The worst ever image, I've ever uploaded in my blog.  Shit fuck!!! That's really not me, people who know me would be surprised for sure (Hopefully). What now?? Never open your mouth with MBA talks, I am no contestant 4 MBA stuff. Shut you mouth & silently prepare for CAT-2009 Give it your shot, let the score speak for you (here also the score speaks 4 me I guess) PS: My mom & dad saw the score, Kya hua!! Harish (mera bhai) ko ...

oh good god!! Finally the D-Day has become history & with full confidence I can announce that there are more exams 4 me to appear as this was a flop show ..;-). I liked the experience of CAT exam & I am also very clear about how easy can the paper get for those who have prepared coz really CAT ain't some rocket science , its just a GENERAL paper with immense surprise factor to deal with. I would equip myself for the coming exams & hope for the best for getting in a coveted b-school in a year or two. I am also very sure that I ain't rushing myself for getting in some b-schools just to get over with my post graduation instead I'd take things slowly & make the most outta my MBA which I'd do in future (hopefully). PS: I met one female sitting just in front of me, who was so so silly that she asked me whether we can copy or not (that's heights of innocence a.k.a stupidity ..LOL)..;-D..BTW she took my number...hurry hurry, at least I got something out o...

This poem goes 2 myself and describes about the life which has been aptly spent in the past 4yrs (I think so!!). It has been properly composed keeping in mind the stages which have really made an impact on my present being. The events listed in the poem are exactly in the same way as they appeared in the past. The title is "Nothing 2 Something" , Its because I have gone a long way and have gone through a lot of things which have been dealt with the correct intensity to which it was required, thats really the fact of the matter. I thought of giving the title "Nothing 2 Everything" but that would be an exaggeration as I don't find myself on top of the world and still feel that there are a lot of fights left for me to fight further in life (Thats how dramatic I can be..;-D). NOTHING 2 SOMETHING Hi there, its all about my last 4 years where I crossed all hurdles without fears I still remember the disastrous results of 12th but got an engineering seat coz of my pop...

Today was ISRO entrance exam for which I was shortlisted (;-)), actually getting shortlisted is very simple as the candidate requires a mere 60% in graduation, which I have peacefully crossed. It was in a Hyderabad center (as applied for)- All Saints High School,Abids, Gunfoundary, Hyderabad . Shortlisted page Screen shot (click to enlarge) Reached there @ 1:45pm for the 3:00pm exam not because I was 2 eager to write, just coz it was mentioned in the call letter to report 1hr prior to the exam .Finally, the exam commenced @ 3:00pm as intended (at least this was done as per the call letter info). PAPER'S MECHANICS DISINTEGRATED Discipline: Computer Science Duration: 90minutes (15:00hrs to 16:30hrs) No of questions: 80 Question Paper Type: Objective (OMR sheet) Marking: Negative Marking, +4 marks for a correct answer & -1 mark for a wrong answer Areas of questioning: Data Structures - graphs, trees, Linked lists Algorithms - sorting, searching, shortest path, spanning, fault...

CONVOCATION '08 Finally the monkey has made it, thats what everyone would be thinking of me. How on earth did i clear engineering so effortlessly without falling into the set pitfalls. I am so bloody proud of myself that I am really out of words 2 express it. Any how, today was my convocation and officially I have been kicked out of the SATHYABAMA UNIVERSITY ;-) , my very own alma matter from now on. From now on its gonna be MR. GIRISH MAHADEVAN, B.E [;-)] It was really a touching moment for all of us but as usual it looked like any other day @ the college, got up early in the morning thinking that Its the last day so its worth grooming myself for this occasion which would take time (it really took almost 30mins to dress up), then on my bike i drove exactly 30kms (by count) to my college and parked and went to my department (by that time all the grooming had faded off ;-)). FIRST CLASS WITH DISTINCTION...now thats something which overpowers all my past failures There I went upstair...

Done with my engineering, Its one of the greatest moment of my life which went like any other normal day (not all that emotion or fun or sentiments), but as I c it, its the end of my ... 4 long years Chennai stay (hopefully; ref:wipro location) & to an extent my degree with the college providing it. Actually, this project work was just a formality for my degree completion ; as heard & felt in the end. I have been free from the engineering hassles from the past one year i.e. from 7th semester but in the 7th semester , I had to write those long long theory papers, but that was just a matter of 15days or so, after that the last semester had some hiccups in the review time i.e. completion tension, but all that has been succumbed. I M LOVING IT My final Review: Proposed time: 11:00am to 3:00pm Time of my review: 2:00pm Some Info with the review schedule: My batch: C Roll no: 24scs131 Reg no: 2411137 No due form: given to us in the last moment, which i felt was quite pissing, it took...

Yesssssssssssss!! i have finally planned 2 write a love letter. But where to deliver?? still to be beckoned..[;-D]. So i was really abased with my current relationship status ( just kidding, i am as happy as i ever wanted 2 be ) and with some pondering i came up with a very decisive manner of handling it, What if!! after some years i have a girl, then she abettors me in being engulfed in her flawlessly sultry and accoutered body, then i would not be in a position to act like an adroit and reach the acclivity of her assuringly accredited acumen; So with that note, its good for me to accede with the present adage thinking and glean a irrefutably besotted letter with a broad mentality of a coalition fraternity. hey pumpkin Ur presence is ubiquitous and without you i am just a serpentine waiting for an outburst from a unquestionably perennial amok, i breath you and my behavior is an upheaval of ur absence. In the myriad peripheries of articulated ...

I t commences in a very very disheartened way. I am not at all happy with what i am doing with my final year project, I still remember in 2nd year i thought of doing it myself all alone with no help, but i sure ain't doing that. This is not fair enough 2 my part nor to my engineering but i seriously cant help it coz i have no idea of what to do and how to do. One thing is very clear from this, i have just been doing my engineering studies without having a love towards learning the subject( this just kills me ). Whenever someone tells me about me just scoring because of my mugging skills , i get really exasperated with that fucker and my mood is totally disturbed. But i can sense that now after everything is gonna finish, i am technically gonna become a software engineering without knowing how to plan and execute a project. Never Mind, i have learned one thing i.e. always think positive. I will do my project with one institute here and will not leave them till i get the whole projec...

it was quite a smooth review w.r.t to my utterly lame thinking. It was just as i wanted "hassle free".;-). No pains at all, the plus point was that i got 2 meet all my friends after a month and a half. My Guide : Mr. Laxmanan About : I really like the way he scrutinizes and i also really respect him for remembering my topic which i submitted 2 him 3 months back, that was really nice of him(i like it). The day as it was: I got up @ 5:45am and just took a quick check on the download status on my PC (as usual), then i did all my preliminary things (brush bath shit etc etc..) and headed for the college bus @ 6:30am, reached the college at 7:30am and felt good as it was around one and half month break. Ready for the first review, met all my classmates and with no prior preparation for the review went for it. At 8:30am just planned 2 meet my guide regarding the review. Me : when 2 give the review sir? Sir : first get the sign from ur internal guide, actually u should get it b4 the ...

Actually 2day was the last n final theory exam (hopefully;-)) of my engineering. Forget about how the exam went, the only thing in my mind is that exams have finished and its just peaceful life from now on( may or may not be correct ). Its an amazing feeling of finishing a long term course(4 long yrs) and that 2 in a very impressing way. I think i have managed to get myself a first class degree and also a job from the placement cell in the college. Revisiting my first year mentality, i would mark it 2 be the best of what i could have done in this course. But as its natural for a person to want more from them self, i have a feeling that i have not got exactly what i want and have to fight 2 get there. I just want 2 get my degree form this college and run far far away from it. Its just gr8 to hear that those who were the best in our school have got the same job offers as that of mine and thats a boost considering me w.r.t them. But whenever i find people better than me it makes me want 2...

Oh please for Fuck sake!!!!! Flush regularly and be clean throughout. I m finally abode and i feel so clean and fresh as i always have been, I was in my friends place for the past 4 days and believe it or not, it was a very abnormal stay. I really liked the place and i really like my friends who live there, So this thing is exactly referring to their place (toilet) and not them. They stay in Besant Nagar, One of the very hep places in Chennai, But their house falls somewhere in the slum areas.;-). Its not at all a good approach as far as the location is concerned but the house is a duplex with a very descent carpet area. As always heard and observed, Bachelor housings are the worst of a kind and really pains those who are normal and stay with some decency. Its not that i am going to their places for the first time, its just that i have not stayed their and followed their lifestyle. A USUAL DAY (HOLIDAY): 8:00 am - Get up and brush in a basin partly covered with fungus (green color). Th...