Have 2 Work hard..
I sometimes think about my past and i feel that i have not done fair 2 my part and nothing has happened as i wanted ( 99.99 % ). My experiences speak about my failures and i have no success stories to boast about or as a matter of fact to feel proud. When i meet different people and see the way they behave or carry themselves, i feel that i m not what actually it looks, i always keep my inner self reserved and never let it out. I find my inner self to be really good, i had no harsh thinking and i was really true by heart but now i have no faith in it, all this change which has got me in a bad state of mind and always makes me to think bad about myself.
Come on ! now i feel i am old enough and can think of what is possible and differentiate between facts and irrelevant thoughts. Now after 20yrs i realize that i have not done good in my schooling and have made myself ineligible for a lot of things and one more thing as its a know thing that i had a biggest ever blow (academically) in my ending years of schooling i feel i had the worst ever exit as expected and could have really done better.
I find success in academics and in none other things. I always want to see myself in top positions when it comes to me and my colleagues. But as i have learned to be optimistic, i feel that all the people who have achieved at most success in life are those who have experienced failure through out their younger days ( i see myself lying in that category ).
Again i find i am lacking somethings and wanting 2 stress on them:
I must say this in the end that i ain't afraid of failures but i am afraid of the opportunities and its acceptance at each part of life. I m really in search of a high roll success. Thats what comes to my mind b4 doing anything.
Come on ! now i feel i am old enough and can think of what is possible and differentiate between facts and irrelevant thoughts. Now after 20yrs i realize that i have not done good in my schooling and have made myself ineligible for a lot of things and one more thing as its a know thing that i had a biggest ever blow (academically) in my ending years of schooling i feel i had the worst ever exit as expected and could have really done better.
I find success in academics and in none other things. I always want to see myself in top positions when it comes to me and my colleagues. But as i have learned to be optimistic, i feel that all the people who have achieved at most success in life are those who have experienced failure through out their younger days ( i see myself lying in that category ).
Again i find i am lacking somethings and wanting 2 stress on them:
- Relationship management
- keep Swearing and promising
- Aim in life is vague
- No confidence and self respect
- Reading and memorizing habits
I must say this in the end that i ain't afraid of failures but i am afraid of the opportunities and its acceptance at each part of life. I m really in search of a high roll success. Thats what comes to my mind b4 doing anything.
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