Still dependent

I can sense the change of behavior in people who actually don't have anything to lean on, from the kind (like me) who actually have all sort of backups. Just because most of us have their folks at home (parents) as a backup; we seem cool/confident/easy going, but what about those who actually serve as a backup and know that they cant relax as some people have good enough stakes on them.

In the office, In person, anywhere you see, It's really easy to differentiate a guy with a backup and a guy without one. It just seems so unreal when you gotta do all that your doing and know its the last resort. I am shit scared of reaching that state & know that a lot of people of my age & some even younger to me have loads of responsibilities to weigh before they do anything.

It's simply "being Indian" when I spend all my cash & look for luxury which I cant afford (unless my father gives a push, u know what I mean). I'd really like to put an end to it & go on myself. Taking favors do not account for dependence but its just a feeling from within which will make us realise on how dependent/independent we are.

PS: When I hear people like me saying "I m broke", its just being stylish and childish at the same time. Actually when people are broke, they don't broadcast the fact with a happy face.
PS: I cant bring in this change overnight but slowly I need to let go of all my dependence over others.
PS: Backups would be great and I hope to build plenty of backups who would hold me but only temporarily (who else, my friends ;-))
PS: Some statements really upset me today which made me write such a sad post...lol. But, I ain't complaining.