Sleepless in senses

The time is 3:00am and i am still awake, this is like the "insomnia" driven part of me. I have really really tried sleeping but no success so far. This is all because of my senses which are still active and unquestionably much more intensely working than any other part of the day. When the mind doesn't order the other parts to rest then how would the body rest. My outter part (sort of muscles) are dying to sleep and wanting to get up with a new day on the roll but this ain't happening.

(clock is ticking)

(skin is oily and i look pale, time is 3am, i m just sick of my thoughts which prevents me from a good night sleep)

Tried Tried Tried but no use.......

• @ 12- i am ready to sleep with the clear intentions of sleeping for not more than 6hrs, have adjusted my alarm to 6am.
• @ 1- i get up thinking that if i sit and surf the net for a while my eyes would eventually get tired and i would feel drowsy, felt a little drowsy but no use as there is no peace inside, all my organs are awake and proactive
• @ 3- i have no other choice but 2 give up on this sleeping and keep doing something until i am unable to move. Now that was the last option and i certainly don't feel like doing some reading @ this time coz i do everything fresh especially the starting part of it. So i ended up blogginggggggggggggggg.

Now what, i just have to while away my time and make sure i am not fainting and getting myself a doctors prescription tomorrow.

PS: it took me almost half an hour to take the photo and upload it 2 my blog, sigh ;-)....i just found a nice way of killing time....;-)
PS2: options coming 2 my mind are....jerking a.k.a shagging, watching TV, Getting my VOCAB list to mug, simply surfing the net....lets c what happens
PS3: the thoughts which are rambling inside me are nothing but the certainty/uncertainty of getting a good score at CAT-08, as one of my friend has got a call and many others have scored good and would surly get into cluster A colleges, I feel really bad for myself 4 not to have written this CAT (actually i was forced to skip it by my freaking college admin rules)

Dont be quiet ;-(

TRY'IN to bring a Change

I had been to one of my friends place and had a total personality revamp, i was not having any negative thoughts about anyone that time and spoke to the people around me with full content. I just cant believe it (the revamp), i was very happy about my behavior and the way the conversation went (post-conversation). It was with one of my old friend and his mom (i saw him after around 6yrs or so).

One thing which i would really want to change is the Taciturn part of my personality. I usually find myself quiet in places where people expect a lot from me and my mouth, after the meeting i end up thinking that the day got ruined and it was a waste of time. So, being quiet makes me feel that i am.....

1. Neglected
2. unwanted
3. disrespected
4. unimportant
5. fultooooo negative vibe

Now thinking all this is utterly lame and now i feel as if i have been finally been able to devise the cause and bring forth a good method to change my point of view; i should readily adapt to it and feel good about it. So from now on there is no looking back and no past things are gonna hinder my present and there is absolutely nothing of disgust. I love myself and other love me for the same reason of being myself and not pretending to be a quiet bozo.

PS: speak out!!!
PS2: it was my friends who led to this change (cb and aunty), i went to their house yesterday and it was a gr8 day as i had good time at ascendas with cb and it felt gr8 to see aunty after so long.
PS: i speak very well if given a chance.

To-Do in DIARY

My New Initiative

This is a small post to remind myself of the "TO-DO list" which i have started in the new diary. Its for a good cause, at least i would know what all i have been doing!!!!!!
This just occupies the topmost column of my diaries page and also restricts me from overloading tasks which cannot possibly be accomplished.

Good 4 me and my diary. Take care.

PS: id post the photo of my To-Do lists after a month or so.
PS2: these to-do lists only include academics (mainly MBA entrance prep)
PS3: would try maintaining a separate To-Do pocket diary..;-)

GET to get her..;-)

Firstly, HPY NU YR to the new blog arena (space 2008)

The title is meant to be confusing (to myself, after some time)...so I'd rather clarify it now, its nothing but "Get Together"...


It just struck me yesterday after i came back from the new years party. I was with my friends (as always), this isn't the part which made me write this post, actually its not the friends which really were the matter of Happiness....it was the time spent with them, it felt great to be with them; just being with a person is enough to overcome some aspects of tension/stress or other negative thoughts. I was with 2 friends who i know properly (paddu and banna) then i met another person (angadh) who was banna's friend (eventually became mine 2). It was not that i know every person in the group including the 2 girls and the guy (i mean i don't stay with them nor they are from my college nor i regularly chat with them), but still they felt like people whom i known for ages.

Everybody gets easily molded to every other persons wants or likes. Its just the mutual understanding which develops between any two people who have the same motives of spending a quality time with each other. I just loved the chatting and dancing part coz i was really a dud i these two areas, it felt gr8 after i came home and those hours spent with them were just for them and no one else. By that i mean, i seriously wasn't thinking of any other thing in this world apart from being happy with that gang of mine ;-).

That is truly a tough thing to achieve with other things like academics, sports etc etc. But i did get a 100% efficiency with my neurons for just being with them and not thinking of any other damn thing. I have coined a term for it -> "friendOeffect"....i love friends and as a matter of fact i love being with people (not necessarily friends) with the same insights and idea.

BOAT CLUB- New Year

Amazing night out....enjoyed more than expected and it was gr8 doing something out of the box like talking,dancing & drinking (mock tail types) etc etc...;-). This is something which would come in my TOP 10 memorable things done in Chennai.

Thats my Gang

This was the New Year BASH!!! @ a very well known club in chennai MBC (Madras Boat Club). Actually the party started @ 9:30pm but i was called @ 9:45pm. All the arrangement and invitation credits goes to Banna & her Parents, Without her nobody could have possibly been linked up to come together for this night. Kudos 2 her (Banna's) plan, Buck up!!

WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED

• Meeting time: 9:45pm (31-12-07)
• Banna & Family with Paddu arrived @ around 10:00pm and readily recognized me standing in the entrance ;-)
• I was quite scared as all the employees (drivers) working there were wearing the same white shirt as me and i was really intimidated with this bloody fact.
• We went inside, and till this moment i have no idea about the tickets which were bought for me and how much i am supposed to pay 4 it (everything was taken care by Uncle/Aunty/Paddu)
• As soon as we entered, following out tradition...we took a snap (Banna, Paddu, Me)
• Then we went to the Dance Floor which was built on top of a LAKE, very descent floor which accommodated good numbers. Danced for more than an hour ....nice DJ, diversifying songs were played ;-) (Hindi, Tamil, English)
• Then came back and had a coke with little liquor mixed in it. (to be precise it was just a drop or two...i.e. just for the sake of adding I added (just 4 fun))
• Then again we went @ around 11:30pm (dance floor) and then finally, it was the final countdown time...which was fabulously done in the club with varied firecrackers ....again the tradition was followed...hugged and wished everyone(really!!)
• we were just dancing with no clue of when to have our dinner (actually nobody was hungry, in the end the coupons were wasted),then in the end we stopped and headed for a soft drink with some snacks (non-veg).
• Then "Mansi"(the singer) came and we made plans to go somewhere in MOCHA (coffee house), but then it was closed by then (@ around 2:20am), so we went to BARISTA (near by) in Nungambakkam.
• Finally, i dropped "Angadh" in his place and headed back to my house, reached @ 3:45am.....then crashed @ 4:00am....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!

PS1: Best New Year of my life so far (Party was amazing and really a very POSH affair)
PS2: CLUB regulations: no tee's or V-necks, strictly trousers and Shoes are must for Gents but for Ladies -everything will do...quite obvious
PS3: My dance was pathetic but WHO CARES!! it was paddu & banna ...they were equally bad..hehehe..actually the start was gr8 and very dancelike but then everybody got tired and were sweating 2much..which bought some new steps to our dance.;-)
PS5: Had a chat with Kartik, Paddu's "WOULD BE" ;-)....he's 2 cool with paddu doing all crap (drinking, smoking n whatsoever) and he had literally no plans for this NEW YEAR apart from a get2gether with his friends.
PS6: The crowd was damn damn Posh...totally westernized people (clothing)
PS7: last but the required, we kinda missed a character "sailesh"...not that we missed him badly but ya to an extent...i don't no about others but i missed him while we were sitting and chatting....actually he has innovative methods to rekindle pasts and somehow bring a topic to talk on (thats his talent).
PS9: Thanks 2 everyone who made this possible:

• Uncle/Aunty
• Banna (right most)
• Paddu (on my left)
• Angadh (on my right)
• Mansi(leftmost)
• Me (4 being myself)...(Center)

Happy new year.;-)